[murmur] ... ...

Against ill chances men are ever marry , but heaviness foreruns the good event.

[murmur] .....

Annie Hall (1977)

Alvy Singer: [addressing the camera] There's an old joke - um... two elderly women are at a Catskill mountain resort, and one of 'em says, "Boy, the food at this place is really terrible." The other one says, "Yeah, I know; and such small portions." Well, that's essentially how I feel about life - full of loneliness, and misery, and suffering, and unhappiness, and it's all over much too quickly. The... the other important joke, for me, is one that's usually attributed to Groucho Marx; but, I think it appears originally in Freud's "Wit and Its Relation to the Unconscious," and it goes like this - I'm paraphrasing - um, "I would never want to belong to any club that would have someone like me for a member." That's the key joke of my adult life, in terms of my relationships with women. 


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Alvy Singer: [narrating] After that it got pretty late, and we both had to go, but it was great seeing Annie again. I... I realized what a terrific person she was, and... and how much fun it was just knowing her; and I... I, I thought of that old joke, y'know, the, this... this guy goes to a psychiatrist and says, "Doc, uh, my brother's crazy; he thinks he's a chicken." And, uh, the doctor says, "Well, why don't you turn him in?" The guy says, "I would, but I need the eggs." Well, I guess that's pretty much now how I feel about relationships; y'know, they're totally irrational, and crazy, and absurd, and... but, uh, I guess we keep goin' through it because, uh, most of us... need the eggs. 

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原本想在2011年的最後一天寫點什麼的，但不知不覺的就過完了整天。
上了班、吃了火鍋、最後還跑去看跨年煙火。

跟去年比起來，今年壅擠得多了。

最後一天來不及的，
那今天是第一天，
就寫寫吧。

2011年，
這一年，過得真的是一晃眼；
也做了一場美夢，
沒有預期過你會出現，
也沒有預期過你會就這樣離開我的生命；
或許這樣的結局不是兩人所期，
但我也不敢再承擔一丁點的重量...

所以這2011年，
我又上了一課，
學會了，
愛情，
像恍泡一般，
光打了，
七彩耀目；
風吹了，
漫天起舞；
置身其中，
宛若仙境；
但是就看著就好，
你越伸手要去觸碰，
它就越是難以捉摸的飄；
最後，
你觸及了，
它也就此消散了。

我也是個沒用的人，
被傷了就傷了，
我就只想逃得遠遠的，
能刪的也刪了，
還是想要遠遠的望著你，
知道你好不好。
看到你的笑，
眼光不自覺得還是飄向你那笑意的眼角，
我知道那也不再是我該緬懷的了。

所以，請讓它結束吧。

2012的到來，
就讓我的罪至此，
神哪，
給我再愛的能力，
一樣的呵護、
一樣的體貼、
變的是，
那個願意與我相攜相伴的你。

說好眼淚不許掉，
也早已是往事，
事實上，
行文至此，
嘴角輕揚...

知道你輕巧的、
已經悄悄來到我的生命裡，
這次，
就讓它永遠幸福吧。

這次，
讓你臉上的笑意跟酒窩，
一年四季的綻放，
一生百歲的恆掛，
這是，
我最真的，
承諾。

所以，
神哪，
聽到哪!?

Happy.New.Year. : )